Archive for July, 2003

Age: 14, Tantric Pursuits summer party the night before our May race. Blasting that song out of the windows of Sue’s li’l blue Citroen (in the days when she still had that as well as the camper). Me, Laura and Paula around the corner screeching over the fact she’d seen a grass snake and smoking hoping our parents wouldn’t find out. Singing that song at the top of our voices.

Bob didn’t go till around 12 and it was so stressful in there when Carol showed her face every now and then. I scooched before anyone had the opportunity to say too much about my department but seeing as no-one monaed there and then I’m assuming things are pretty safe for me. But, you never know.

Mum took me for another drive after work. I think I got across the sense in letting me drive to Havant cus she went for that idea again. Once we got down there I had about half an hour before the train so I suggested we drive around for a li’l bit. Having absolutely no idea where to go I let her decide and before I knew it she’s got me driviing down the A27. She decides she wants to get off and tells me to take this junction but there’s nowhere to go except back on that road or on the motorway so guess which one she chooses? Carry on in the direction we were already going. Next thing I know I’m driving down the Eastern Road and making my way to Y’s house. I guess things went fairly well (except a minor moment when I tried to take out a car (which had right of way) on a roundabout. I guess I even mnaged to park fairly well outside Y’s house (a miracle in itself due to space constraints and the fact that I can’t reverse that car).

I guess we had a li’l moment tonight. Y’s been in a foul mood for the most of today and I guess it kinda rubbed off on me. When it came down to it I explained that while I don’t mind helping out with his work a li’l bit I don’t wanna take on another part-time (and quite possibbly even a full-time) job. I don’t want he responsibility of it. It’s not what I want to do. And, I’ve always said that. Whilst I think now he understands, I’m not sure about everyone else.

I’m quite concerned about what B1 has planned/done to my ill pyjamas. I’ve got visions of them strung up in shreds hanging from my lampshade.

I’m definately seeing B2 on Tuesday, after I’ve had my hair done and she’s finished at the hospital. She left a comment on Y’s site saying that “I would just like to say that – this is nothing against you but – if you ever hurt her, I will personally beat you to death with a shovel cos I love her too (which I must say it sounds like you have already realised.)”. It was so sweet and absolutely hilarious at the same time. By the sounds of things though, she’s really starting to accept him, which has been a bit of a problem with past boyfriends. I know she’s gonna sit and read this either tomorrow night (if she’s not working) or Saturday morning and she’s probably gonna kill me but hey, that’s what sisters do, and I love her.

We just watched Treasure Planet. It’s so cool! I loved it. I laughed so much. I’m not sure you could even call it laughing, more giggling!

I think B2 surprises me more and more each time I hear from her. I’m gonna have to make such an effort to see her sometime over the next week or so. Especially to sit down and have a good chat with her, to explain a few things.

We all sat down tonight and had what I guess could be called our first business meeting. It was good fun but I’m not sure I quite realised how deep in I’ve gotten. I guess you could say that I’ve gotten myself a second part-time job. Although, I’m not sure how part-time this one could turn out to be. I guess it’s a good thing that I seem to get so few hours at work. Mind you, 39 next week doesn’t seem to be so few!

Turns out Bob’s turning up for a visit tomorrow so I figured I better try tidy up a bit, give Carol less of an excuse to start throwing things around tomorrow. Well, it started off as a bit of a tidy but ended up as more of a blitz. Didn’t quite finish before I had to leave so I guess I’ll try finish that one first thing tomorrow morning.

I picked my current song cus it’s always in my head. I guess that makes near on four days now. Whatever I do, whatever I listen to, it just doesn’t seem to shift. So I’m listening to it lots. I wish we still had a copy of the single at work cus then I could buy it and stick it in my walkman and listen to it nearly non-stop. I guess next time I’m near a HMV or some’t I’ll try and get a copy.

Mum picked me up after work so I could go driving. I was quite surprised cus she let me drive down to Havant. I didn’t think she’d go for the idea (which I’d had just so I could get down to Y’s quicker) but she didn’t seem to object. Maybe she seemed a li’l apprehensive at the thought of me driving down the A3 so far but she didn’t actually say anything. I think she was quite surprised by the time we got down to the station.

I guess I was quite surprised reading my comments to see one from B2. I saw two there and expected one to be from Y. I had no idea the other would be from her. I guess it should have occured to me that having the address of this site as the tag on the bottom of my emails would just attract her attention. It seems kinda wierd knowing that my sister reads my blog. Maybe I should just write in a paper diary and leave it around for her to read?! I guess I read it and was virtually in tears (again). She’s right though, we need to make more of an effort to spend time together. I guess I might go and call her now. She’ll like the fact that someone’s phoning her on her posh new phone.