If you’re already suffering from depression, is a crash just a crash when it happens three weeks to the day when you gave birth, or is that post-natal depression as well? Does one morph to the other and take over?
And what do you do when you’re on your own with the kids when that inevitable crash happens and although one is sleeping the other is acting out and causing chaos. What do you do when your eldest is hugging, begging you to tell him what happened, but you just can’t snap out of it because every time you come close to at least starting to pull it together he asks again and upon realising what a failure you are as his mother it all falls apart again. Then the baby starts crying and the boy starts crying because the baby’s crying and you cry even more because you just can’t pull it together and get up to look after either one of them.
Well then you all carry on until the husband gets home to rescue you all and take care of you. And you go to sleep, because at least then you don’t have to deal with it all. But you realise when you wake up that sleep doesn’t make it all better and wonder if anything does.
Oh lovely. Am thinking of you. I know how hard it is with a tiny one, without existing depression as well. If you get on with your health visitor/GP etc please tell them. I found just telling someone (other than B), how awful I was feeling and how badly I felt like I was failing, helped, and they were wonderful. Also, I wonder whether homestart might be able to help you. They’re a non-judgemental, non-means tested charity that works just to come in and give you a hand, for only a couple of hours a week. I don’t want to deny the seriousness of what you’re feeling but maybe having a bit of time for you, to have a shower, or a cup of coffee, or talk to a friend, might help. You can find them online, and in the meantime, keep going….
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I think if you tend to depression anyway, you are more likely to succumb to PND. Whatever it is, you still need to deal with it. Please talk to you health visitor or midwife. I did, and found them really sweet and helpful. They talked through all kinds of coping strategies with me and it really helped to know that they were at the other end of the phone. Look after yourself x
I recognise your misery. It’s horrible, isn’t it? Please talk to someone – you don’t just have to put up with it. You are not a failure.
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Yes – just in case it is PND not regular depression (which is bloody bad enough anyhow) talk to a Dr and adjust your meds. Sooner rather than later….
big hugs.
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Never ever think your a failure – couldnt be further from the truth V. Love u miss you x x
Sending you huge hugs.
It definitely is worth talking to someone, hope you can get to see someone soon and they’re helpful.
Take care, you’re a fab mummy and a lovely lass!
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You’re a great Mum, remember that. You can’t control when depression hits. I hope your doctor can help. Thinking of you.
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Awww, hope all is okay. Hugs to you.
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Are you OK? Bless you and hugs and other useless things because I don’t know what to say xx
Hugs xx
Was popping by for a looksee and came across this. I have clinical depression and I had PND. The PND came on three weeks after the Birth very sudden and very fast like a rush of hormones flooding the place – really scary. It passed thanks to a lot of help and support from the doctors, my family and friends.
Take greatest care.